Our relationship with time..
From controlling to allowing..
They say that time is the most important asset that we have.I will not disagree with this.
Last Saturday, I went to an art exhibition and I saw a famous painting for the Spanish painter Antonio Lopez (Check this link if you are curious about the artist).He took from 2010-2015 to paint his famous work βGran Viaβ.
That is quite normal for painters and all art creators and maybe even art students .But for me it was not and this is why I am writing this article today.
My understanding of time used to be very problematic I dare to say.
Definitely because of the way our society looks at time, this scarce resource that we should grasp and hold tightly, calculate thoroughly and plan meticulously. We are taught to control time.I am not against planning at all it is a very good practise.
But how are we planning? or are we trying to control our time more than to plan our time?
My rebellious nature decided to go against anything that was introduced to it wrongly. And I am glad it did.
The fight and the battlefield with time was against my benefits though. So looking into my relationship with time was quite urgent to me and still is somehow (it is a process just like everything).
In the past,I related to time as a scarce resource somehow. Always trying to put deadlines and failing at them (a form of control).
And now I experience time differently in so many ways (I allow it more in some way) yet when it comes to some specific things that require discipline (and lots of time and dedication) impatience kicks in and guilt kicks in with each moment of delay and I enter a vicious cycle between myself, time, my passion, my goals (lool) and like we are all in a battlefield.
The painting (the foto below) took 5 years. One painting.
This was a light bulb to me somehow!
Why canβt I allow myself also this time or more for the piece of art that is my life?
The painting inspired me a lot to look into the concept of time to me and to make peace with it in a different way.
If we want our life to be a work of art we should allow it the time it needs.
Our relationship to time must be based on allowing and respect. We should honour our time because in the end we are mortals and our time will end, but we should not try to control it and fight it.
And powerful beautiful art takes time to create.
We must allow ourselves this grace.
