On being a Sudanese woman inferiorised by Sudanese men.

Talking war...Isn't this a primary war?

Living in Europe for more than four years now, living in a kind of a small city I have seen, felt, and experienced racism (I see it as targeted inferiorising behaviour) just as I have experienced many other difficult situations of targeted inferiorising actions, words, systems, etc.

But I am not writing about this today, surly I will write about it also. Today I come and write about the “inferiority” practices by Sudanese men in higher social structures like the European social context or generally higher social group contexts.

Why? because I feel like writing about it..

Does it hurt the most? at this stage in my life No, not really but it made me wonder from where this desire to inferiorise your Sudanese sister comes from. Does it make me angry? It makes me sad more than angry. I come to notice that in our Sudanese community men come to us as women for support, nurturing, guidance and all kinds of help. But they can’t stand that we outshine them at all. They hit us hard by words, behaviours and all kind of things that guarantee their feelings of superiority.

Why in contexts where there are European (white women) Sudanese men attack us, why?? why there is this comparison that comes out and shows in words, sentences and behaviours. Why not make the Sudanese woman shine?

Is there a huge level of insecurity that is triggered by us? or by them?

I also experienced this vicious competitiveness that is directed to inferiorising us as women back in my career in healthcare in Sudan, and even in the context where my role and my excellence made lots of money for somebody, this somebody still managed to say something or do something to show a whole group of people his superiority...

I am talking war these days but isn’t this our primary war? aren’t Sudanese men raping Sudanese women now??

I just want us as women to stand up for this for the sake of our community and our future generations, and the hope of this homeland that is tearing itself apart.